~luminescent-rose

I don't know about anybody else, but if your loved one gave their number to the opposite sex, would you not be upset?\

There was one incident when this guy was kinda hitting on me.. asking me for my number, he wouldn't shut up, so i gave him my EMAIL! Even Taylor got mad at me for that. He went away to his cottage.. met some guy who brought him to a PARTY. He met girls, admitted to me that eh thought they were pretty [apparently not as pretty as me] and gave them his number! FUcking hypocrit I'm so mad and fucking furious. I could understand if he gave it to the guys, and I dont even know if he did that. He said cause theres nothign to do there. HES NOT GOING TO BE THERE LONG! like jesus christ, he's comign back today I told him I didn't want to see him.

I really shouldn't have to put up with this bullshit. Last time he had friends who were girls, he cheated on me. I don't want him hanging out with girls unless I'm there. Plus i told him theres a rule, I have to meet them first before heh angs out with them by himself. Which he didn't even concider. He's so inconciderate of my feelings. He knew I'd be upset. He thought it was good that he told me. the way he put it it soundedl ike "LOOK! I DIDNT CHEAT ON YOU! LOOK HOW FAITHFUL I AM!" Faithful to me is not even associating with them unless you have to I told him I dont ever want him to do that again.

If I speak to him todya, I'm goign to tell him he can't do that ever again as long as he's with me, and if he doesn't like that, he can go find someone else who will allow him to because I guarantee that person will not care about losing him. I do.

I'm so fucking mad right now it's unbelievable. He's such an asshole. He didn't even think about how i'd react. Seriuosly, this is all his fault. If he didn't cheat on me, I would not have a single fucking problem with him hanging out with girls. I didn't before. When he first hung out with meghan, it was on our first month, and i didn't liek that. but i was like as long as nothing happened, i'm alright with it. but of course, several months later he tells me what happened. I got back at him, I feel stupid for it, but i did get back at him.

I don't even want to speak to him. I feel like strangling him. He said he'd be in toronto at one, I'm hoping ill finish ranting soon get in the bath and go to the beach where he can't find me. I got a call from work they were asking me to come in for 12-6, but i called back and they were busy and when it finally rung they didn't pick up. I feel bad because I always say call me if anyone calls in sick, but then I never really want to go in lol. But this would've been a good way to stay away from Taylor. As bad as that is.

I had another ghost dream last night. I really hate them cause they feel so real.. I seriously thing some spirit is near me while I'm dreaming, it's really creepy..ahhhh..

I'm so tired to do anything. bye.